I'm a Sexual Assault Victim - Here's My Opinion on Louis CK

Opinions are like elbows - everybody has them. Here's mine; you can take it or leave it.

I've really struggled with my stance on this in the last 24 hours, and yes, I'm wondering what YOU think, too.

Louis CK made a surprise appearance at the Comedy Cellar in New York City on Monday night, doing a 15-minute set that made no mention of the sexual misconduct allegations against him. Those allegations came to light last fall, and the fallout was immediate: HBO, Netflix and FX dropped his specials, appearances and shows from their networks.

He didn't deny the allegations and said that he would "step back and take a long time to listen."

He was part of the avalanche of men like Harvey Weinstein and Kevin Spacey who were accused of sexual assault during the #MeToo movement.

It's important to know what he's accused of, if you didn't already. The details of those allegations can be read HERE. Multiple female comics have the same stories of him exposing himself to them behind closed doors.

Now, in the briefest fashion possible, I'll tell you that I was sexually assaulted by a doctor during an exam five years ago. I'm also a huge Louis CK fan.

I consider myself to be open-minded; I try not to be biased. Just because I'm a fan of his, it doesn't mean that he can do no wrong. We see this in politics a LOT - people will give the candidate whom they voted for an excuse to do whatever they want. I try to make a conscious effort NOT to be like that.

I know I'll take a ton of heat for this, but I don't think it was too soon for Louis CK to come back.

What he did was perverted, inappropriate and an abuse of his celebrity.

That being said, I do believe that he's paid a penance. He lost his career for a year, and it won't ever be the same after this. However, what he did was not "illegal" and he was never convicted of anything. He waited almost a year, did a 15-minute set at a small comedy club and now he's faded away again.

I don't feel like EVERY man who has been accused of something should be exiled and punished for life. Not every allegation is true. Not every allegation is of illegal activity.

Part of the outrage against Louie is that his accusers say that they've been called "sluts" and every other name in the book, and have received death threats. In other words, he faced no consequences, but his accusers DID.

I feel like a traitor to women as I type this.

I'm not diminishing what happened to the female comedians who made accusations against him. That would be like a rape victim telling ME that I'm not allowed to be upset about what happened with my doctor, because their experience was worse. That's not how the world works.

That's why this an "opinion" and not "fact." I'm not saying that I'm right or wrong; I'm saying that, as a victim myself, I feel like a bad person for not villainizing him further.

I can hardly call a 15-minute surprise set at a small comedy club a "comeback." Maybe he's dipping his toes in the water to see what the reaction is? He's never come off as a pompous guy; he admits that he has perversions and problems, which some people see as a smokescreen for the misconduct. If he tries to sell out Madison Square Garden next week, my opinion might change. But for now, this is how I feel, right or wrong.